It is easy to let anxiety consume every waking moment when we live with an active addict. I felt a false sense of control and became anxious when I thought the addict in my life was going to use.
I was so consumed with living my life for the addict that I started neglecting my own responsibilities. I began to stay home so that I could watch her every move, as if this was going to fix the situation. I thought I could prevent her from using, spending so much money, or doing more damage to our lives. If I could make her see what she was doing to herself, her family, her life, all our lives, then everything would be okay. We could all live a happy, loving, healthy, stress-free life. It was only when I had reached my breaking point that I realized I could not continue and finally saw that this was insanity.
The monster, addiction, consumed my every thought, action, and emotion to the point where I became physically, mentally, and emotionally ill. I had to stop it now! I learned to let go. I realized I had no other choice. I finally got it! I have no control over the addict and I never will.
Thought for Today: we are free to make our own choices, as the addicts are free to make their‘s. We cannot control another and trying to do so will only bring anxiety.